THE TRUTH

GOD

So many whishes, So many! So much doubt! Pain! Suffering!
I´ve been fighting naked against such a strong army! Why is it so difficult to tear down its fortress walls? I feel like I´m losing my will, my hope! I don´t know if I can still stand this fight!
I know I ´ve been learning a lot! But I´m starting to doubt if it is useful! I don´t know if I want to become one of them! Actually, I don´t! I´m sure! I have come to that conclusion already!

Futhermore, I know that you want me to see them! to learn how they are, to be aware about them! To feel save by knowledge! But I´m in Risk GOD! I need your help! I can´t build and rise my own fortress. I´m naked! I told you! I´m unsaved! I´m SCARED!

Even withh all my efforts I still don´t understand! they are so blinded! GOD! hear me, Save me! Stay with me!

Why do I seem to be so lonely in this Journey? I feel losing energy! I´m starting to fall! It´s like if I was alone! Like if I was the only one that is searching for something bigger, greater, mighty! They are so blinded by their own fears, doubts, uncertitudes, untrusts. Their lack of confidence and emotion are killing the most beautiful thing a human can achieve! It´s not like they think it is! It´s not a joke! It´s not a game! It´s not a number! It´s not just a night of pleasure! It´s not just a moment to slip away! It´s not a test or a try! Dammit! How I´m Still hate this! Where are their Hearts!??? Disgusting!

Show me GOD! Point to me where can I find it! please! I need I way to get inside them! I need a way to enter those walls! To make them believe and see how it´s beautiful! to feel complitaly free!!! Show me GOD a way IN! PLEASE!!!

I´m tirede to fight! I´m tired to stand up for something that they can´t understand! They can´t feel it! They can´t open their heart! I´m starting to doubt if they even have a heart by the way!

It´s not right! I can´t believe! Show me GOD! I beg you! Help me! Open their eyes! Open their Hearts! Let me get in before its too late! I don´t wanna give up, But I´m one more step closer each day! Help me! Please! Listen to Me! Help me destroy their fortress! Now! Love must prevail!

Shut up!

Many methods of meditation pass through the process of shutting the voices inside your head. A Silent mind can be really usefull to relax, avoid stress and, also, to be able to focus on specific objectives, sometimes, easier to achive without the thousands of doubts that harm us everyday inside the storm of our brains!

Ok! But there is something that I have noticed that goes beyond the mind. Perhaps, much more complex. Yes, we can turn our brain, our mind and our thoughts off! However, What can we do about this feelings that suddenly appears inside our hearts!? Sometimes, It´s not about Thoughts! Sometimes, we just feel that something is going weirdly! It´s like instincts! How to shut it up!? How can we silence these weird whispers that plague our hearts? It´s not just about our mind! We can control it! But I´m still looking for something that could help me deal with all of this weird voices and breezes inside my heart! Does anyone has a glue? and even like that... remains a question... Will there be smart to work trying to avoid those feelings? I don´t know...
Maybe, it´s better to remains on board! Trying to figure out what is going on... ´cos in the end... perhaps we will at least feel like we were not alone at the whole process... Leading us to good or bad things...
Well,
For while... I´ve just remenbered a frase of my favorite song ever... written by dream theater...
"Learning to Live"...
It says: " the way your heart sounds makes all the diference in learning to live"!!!
I think they are right...
Let´s keep vigilant to it! even with all the risk to fall in a self trap!

Cya... ;)

Lights On!

Yeah!

There is a master plan!

A war, A heart, a mind, a path.

Surrounded by all sorts od feelings...

Struggling to break the chains...

I´m Aware, I can see... Even through darkness, I can see.

Mystic scaring bright eyes stares at me...

Useless! No fear!

Great white wings flying above my aspirations! Protection! Desire! fire!

Shadows collinding; taking over the scene around.

Resistance. A daily fight.

Head Down, a moment of Doubt. Then Comes the yellow wave. A drop of light that spreads its power through my body.

Deep Breath. Confidence.

Yes, There is a master plan.

A war, a battle, A fight, a future, a hope, a life.

Recovering.

A Dream.

Wings, Wind, Sky, Lights on!!!

Overwhelming desire, lust, temptation, domination. Two sides; Two fronts.

Wearing Winter clothes to stand a burning summer sun. Naked to hold a shinning and freezing snowflake.

Open bleeding wounds, a weakness, a regret, a menace.

Hear me, Heal me, Save me.

Blinded eyes, a faith. A pray. From my own yearnings of shelter and mercy I find the way back, the power, the energy. I rise again, greater, stronger, Mighter! Φ 1,618033989 Φ

Confidence.

A Heart biggest than the world.

LIGHTS ON! protection, No chains will Fit! All Chains will Break.

From deep inside grows my faith, my power.

Prevail, I will!

NOW... Listen carrefully...

I´m gonna spread it!

Prepare yourself! ´cos nothing can harm me...

Fool!

It´s Useless! It´s a fight you can´t win!

You were defeated once and that´s how it´s gonna be for all eternity!

Thousands of years and you still haven´t learned... You are fated to fail! To taste the magnificent power!

Give up! Don´t face me! It´s just a waste of time... Give up! And It´s really dangerous for you... Just a warning! I won´t say it again...! Get away! you can´t stand this fight!!

Soon enough a loud scream will spread the greatness. The light will take it over! It Will shine everywhere. All Shadows will be Destroyed, All chains will be broken and fall! White Wings will domain the skies above.

The Answer lies deep inside. There is a master plan! No fear!

It´s just the Beginning!

LIGHTS ON!

Well...

Once I´m having throubles to upload MY videos at youtube... ´cos the Shit F. Copy Right (Damn you Ozzy... rsrs) is F. freaking me out... I decided to try this tool here...

Let´s see if it´s gonna work...

Anyway... I still have to improve this edition... I didn´t like it at all... but the scenes are very nice... so ... Enjoy it... I´ll try to make another edition later...

Cya

Silvio

A Fate!!!

... Under Construction

First Explanation... Why...

...For a long time I asked myself if I should make a blog...
I usually write many things some times... funny things, sad things... For many times I just let my Heart express himself throught the paper...
It´s interesting ´cos many times it just doesn´t make any sense at all! ...
But I still feel it´s very important to write my feelings down... It´s like to release it and make it more confortable to understand them sometimes...

However, maybe I´ll try to use this blog also for other subjects... to talk about all sorts of things... jokes... funny things... daily happenings... you know... To keep talking just about crazy heart feelings might let someone to jump out of the window... rsrs

Anyway...

Ahhhh... And yes... Many of my friends that might come visit this blog might ask why I´m writing in english here...
well... It´s just something crazy... I use to talk with myself in english a lot...
And I always write everything about those things in english...
I Don´t know why...
But I really still think English is a far better language to express many things than any other one...
Since I´ve returned from Australia I have that in mind... So... Even if my english is crappy... nevermind... I´m gonna still keep using it...

Ok!!!... I think the time for Blog has come!

So... Have fun! don´t try to understand, ok!?? But you can try to feel it... Might be better...

Cya!!

And be welcome to my little inside world!

Silvio Moraes